Relationships are HARD

Published by Gayla at 3:14 am under Coffee Break

Let’s see if I can condense the last 8 months or so right quick so I can get on to what’s really on my mind here.

The beginning of this year brought with it life in a new home and one hefty divorce.

Shortly after my divorce, I was attempting to update an online dating review I’d done years ago on Yahoo Personals. While updating the review, I was forced to create a profile just to get in to test the waters out to see if everything functioned like it did back then. It did not – so the profile was a good thing.

Because the profile was new, it was not visible and approved, so I shut down and went to bed thinking I’d finish up the next day.

The profile went visible sometime in the night and the next day I had over 30 responses.

I immediately hid my profile – because I was nowhere near ready to date – really.

There was one though. One that caught my eye because he was so close to where I live. He had to know people I knew and I thought it might be nice to find a male friend to hang out with while I’m processing my divorce.

We met, we liked, we dated.

Flash forward to present day…

I have trust issues! Big. Time.

I doubt it has a thing to do with the fact that I have been married twice to men who managed to cheat on me right under my freakin nose.

As the result of these trust issues, I feel as though I keep pushing A away or at least driving a wedge in between something that could turn out to be a really wonderful thing.

So what’s a girl to do when she can’t stop over thinking and over analyzing?

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  1. # Michelle Son 24 Oct 2009 at 4:48 pm
    I think that “over-analyzing” is really your gut trying to tell you something. My best friend does this and she also does something she calls “fence sitting.” It’s her gut and it is never wrong. When something is right, there is very little “over thinking” because there’s a natural flow.

    Of course, this is all theory, because I am always “over thinking” it. ;D